Art courtesy of Keiyou. :) She made is as a gift for me after some of our very awesome fanfiction related writing sessions. It’s Kurogane (left) and Fai (right) from my favorite anime Tsubasa. Thankies Keyou, you’re the best!!!
I had a thought.
And then I lost it.
Go figure.
Today was blissfully quiet. I sat on the couch most of the day catching up with friends, comments, and while I didn’t actually get any serious writing done- I thought about some of my stories which in its own way almost counts. :) I played with the setting on some of my blogs and set up my friend Keiyou’s brand new blog very nicely if I do say so myself. *grins proudly* She’s still very new to the whole blogging world so it’d be really awesome if any of you out there could maybe stop by and give her a little encouragement. She might seem a bit shy at first but just ignore that because she’s secretly a social bug. *winks*
I’m thinking about starting two more official websites, by official I mean buying the domain name and setting it up. One for my “Don’t Stop Searching’ project and then another for a writing project of mine. Neither will be community sites like Spirit’s Home because I can’t possibly manage another site like it. I just don’t have enough resources and energy to do it. For those of you who know of the “Don’t Stop Searching” project I’ll be looking for volunteers sometime soon to help me catch up on all the emails I have coming in. I haven’t tended to it for a month or two now but I have twenty some posts to make and could really use the help especially if I make a full site out of it.
I’m still tired and rightfully so after an eight day work week but I’ve promised myself there’s no point in complaining about it. I’ve started looking at these little struggles as a form of meditation. Concentration, patience, discipline, and calmness. If I can manage these and focus on these while grinding my teeth and mentally swearing at people then I will feel like I am, in some quiet hidden way, accomplishing something.
It reminds me of something I read from one of Deng Ming-Dao’s books “Tao 365″, I don’t remember the whole story but there was this woman who swept temple steps every day. Not like three or four steps but like three or four hundred. She did this even though each and every day hundreds of tourists and monks would come up those steps to pray. One day someone asked her why she bothered if the elements and people were just going to undo her work the next day? Her reply was something along the lines of pointing to the monks in the midst of prayer. That is how they pray and devote themselves to their spiritual paths. They sit and concentrate or practice discipline and her sweeping the steps was how she practiced, her way of devoting herself to the temple by caring for it and devoting herself to a seeming meaningless task that if she didn’t do it watch and everyday- who would? Someone has to do it after all.
I hope that made sense to the situation I was using it in but in the end if it only makes sense to me I suppose that’s all that really matters. :)
A funny thought…
Keiyou and I were just chatting (okay so we’ve been chatting for over four hours, so sue me) and sharing songs when she sent me this real gem. As soon as I heard it the fire was rushing through my veins urging me to type and my soul filled with words and images that just wanted to explode from the soft chewy center known as my brain. It was awesome but at the same time (and yes I mean this) I wanted to talk to her more than I wanted to write and as much as I can multitask when working on my site or posting- I can’t do it while writing. I just get too absorbed and have difficulty pulling back so I made this joke that they need to make something similar to a Nicotine patch for writer’s when we get that urge. Not to make us quit! By no means should you think I mean that! I just mean that when I was in high-school or when I’m at work it would have really helped my concentration to tone the urge down because when my brain starts going off into that other world and traveling along roads known as scenes, chapters, and paragraphs- well, there’s isn’t a whole lot of room for much else when you have half a universe and then some crammed into your head.
Looking back I can fondly remember several moments where I was sitting in class furiously fleshing out a character sketch or making a timeline for events in one of my stories rather than the civil for example. I still paid attention in class and learned quite a bit but as for my homework- well, it suffered do to some of my more severe writerly urges, hence one of many reasons why I prefer online classes at my own pace.
Been playing around with my computer lots. :) Unlike most people I keep my windows bar vertical along the right side of my desktop so I have more space for various things (and because it just confuses the heck out of anyone using my laptop!). Recently I’ve added two small icons to my bar that open up two menus. The first and most important has shortcuts to my writing programs and all my blessedly multiple story folders. The second links to everything mp3 player and music in general related. I like this setup a lot because even though I can get to most of this stuff through my laptop I tend to be running a lot of open windows at once (yahoo chat windows, msn chat windows, meebo chat windows, blogger, my website, a code platform for my site, the aforementioned story folders and several of the stories themselves…) so it tends to be a bit of a pain to go through the Start menu and all my programs to find something but at the same time it could take even longer sometimes just to find my Desktop and when I do there’s always the chance that my often half formed thoughts have created several random Documents to clutter it up. So, yes, I am very happy with my new little menus. So happy in fact I’ve decorated them with stars. :)
This post feels very random.
I like it.
Maybe now that I’ve gotten some of this clutter out of my head I’ll be able to remember that thought I had.
Maybe?
Lol.
erson A: “Wow. I love that flower in your hair. It goes so nicely with the color of your shirt.”
I love this one site I recently found. I can’t tell you how I found it, that has long since escaped my memory but ‘what’ I found is definitely stuck with me. It’s this awesome thing called MindBump. You can click to read all about it cause I’m not feeling like explaining right now- maybe later.
