Today I endeavor to start anew.
Renewed and refilled with the ever changing essence that is me.
I hope to make it clear that this isn’t just some new year garbled filled with resolutions and promises for a brighter 365 than previous. Nope, I’ve always tried to keep myself away from that trap… excluding the year I resolved to watch more television because a commercial told me to. :)
No. I’d Ike to stress that this is different. This is something that’s been building and beginning in me for some time now but begins are simple: they happen. Starting is a choice and today I start to choose.
My mantra has always been a simple yet powerful thing, a single word to keep me moving when my strength is drowning. Flow. Like in Tao, I need to bend without breaking to withstand whatever storm blows my way. Nowadays though I know better, my strength isn’t so much my question as perhaps my will. With that thought in mind I look to the other half of Tao. To stand firm, an indominable force in it’s natural state.
My new mantra is ‘Just do it.’
I need something I can’t find, I make it.
I want something done and waiting for help is wearing on my bones, I do it.
Need this moved, I move it.
Need to know something, I find the answer.
I’m done with waiting, asking, etc. I will go get, go do, go, go, go!
I will be a force of nature, raw and true to my core.
I want to explain how I’ve come to these thoughts, the months that have been put behind so simple seeming words but I feel like I can babble on that for ages and that’s not my goal. Right now I just want to say it, this morning I’ve chosen to renew myself. To start.
This means a lot for every aspect of my life but today’s focus is mostly toward my writing. This morning as I lay between dream and enough awareness to know it was snowing outside I began to think about all my posts from the years previous. I began to realize that I’m not quite the person I was between those words. I am, I was but I am also something so much different. Everyday. So different.