Apr
Sick Of Greedy People Deciding If I Can Get Help Or Not…
Received a bit of bad news at therapy today. Looks like my Medicaid (or the half ass version I’m privy too) expired and no one bothered to tell me. Not only does this mean I get to enjoy the tedious process of reapplying but any appointments I have during this ‘in between’ period are going to cost me personally. Not that they didn’t before but at least it was a small enough amount that I could chance trying to see someone.
You’d think they could have given me a call or something, eh? Nope. Not a single call, letter, smoke signal. Nothing. What a rip. I only absolutely needed it for one thing and now it’s not even good for that. *sigh*
To top it off the wonderful system that runs things in the mental health industry may have just decided I’m not broken enough to need help. Next week I have to go through a review/assessment to see if I still ‘need’ therapy. I’m not entirely sure what I think of that but it leaves a hollow feeling in my gut.
I kind of feel like my training wheels are being taken off too soon. I like going to therapy, I find it very helpful and a lot of the time it’s the only place I can talk about certain things. Things I’d never write about here…
Things I can’t talk about with friends and family and I don’t say that for lack of trying. I have tried with mixed results that leave me feeling worse despite their best efforts. I’ve tried getting these things out in an online chat group for people with the same problem… but it wasn’t the same. It didn’t leave me feeling any better, only distracted.
The worst part is that all these decisions- the cutting of my useless insurance, the dropping me from therapy are all related to money. It isn’t related to whether I need help or not. It’s related to if they can afford to pay people to deal with my paperwork, if they can pay someone to file my case, or if someone else (in my place) could pay them more than I can (difficult to explain). More so it’s also because the system (still both of them) is overloaded. There are too many people who need these resources simply because no one is helping them in the first place.
If we could help people when they need it instead of making them file three months worth of paperwork… that was me and I can’t tell you how bad certain things got in that time period not to mention with the stress of trying so futilely to get what I needed.
*sigh* I don’t want to type about this anymore. It all comes down to money in the end and that’s just sad.
02Apr
duckie i’m so sorry to hear about this; I can send them an angry face or how about a starved rabid dog. Maybe that will kick them in the ass..
02Apr
I’ll find a way to manage it’s just the concept of it all. It’s a self spurning circle that seems to do more harm than good sometimes. I have to laugh at the irony, a good example being we tell so many people they need this, that, and some other medication even though there are other alternatives, then we take away the services that help them get that medication and lastly- scorn people who half their pills or who have nervous break downs for not taking them.
Our society does a pretty pathetic job of taking care of one another. There is nothing humane about humanity.
*sigh* Lol, nah. Wouldn’t want you to deal with the postage required for something like that. ;) All I ask is that if I die from something perfectly curable I want my body left on the front steps of the Medicaid office. :)
02Apr
amen to that. too much in this life seems to be money-based rather than person-based.
(yeah, i know: a short comment, huh? hehe)
02Apr
people have to make a living somehow but it is sad that some things that really don’t seem like they should be a commodity are. why on earth is treating the sick a commodity? i don’t have a problem paying someone a living wage to do their work but when it becomes always an issue of money it is just really, really sad.
02Apr
Nothing wrong with the short ones on occasion. Makes up for me taking so long to get around to it. ;)
02Apr
*sigh* It’s all a sad issue that I keep coming back to. Commodities. *snort* A full pocket is the only commodity people really understand.