Happily Wasted (In The Sober Sort Of Way)
February 8th, 2010
I have wasted my day away- from the moment I woke up till the moment at hand. Nothing I’ve done has achieved anything.
Or has it?
Like a coin I have both my positive and negative moments. Everyone does but I do like to think I acknowledge flip side more often than a lot of people so forgive me if this is stretching things a bit. :)
I woke up, I played Sims3. For 11 hours straight. No, I’m not joking. I’d be a lot less embarrassed to be typing this if I was but as it stands I’m too lazy to type it if I don’t mean it. ;) 11 hours.
So, you can see why I feel like I haven’t gotten anything done today but the more I sit here thinking about it the more I realize that maybe I did do something. Games are a great distraction, a great way to let the mind drift without quite as much potential for getting caught inside it. In short- it’s hard to think about the stress that’s trying to pile up on me whenever I’m not looking when I’m busy trying not to kill the little people in my town. :)
I’m not much of a gamer by nature but I think I can start to understand the lure some people feel. I know when I start getting real anxious- the peace and quiet inside my head too still to hold back the darker darkness, I find a quick online game of Tetris. The thing that just amazed me so much is that I actually spent a whole day doing it. Usually Ree has to beg me to come game with her online because despite the pretty colors I just can’t go that long. Usually my muse steps in and says ‘No, I have an idea. You need to log out right now and let me take control.’ and then he hits me over with his newest pet plot bunny.
Did I mention said plot bunnies are usually rabid?
Well, they are.
Anyways, so yeah, I did not expect to be gaming that long at all but now that my eyes have readjusted and I’ve actually left my seat for more than an hour (even walked from one side of the house to the other) I’m glad I did because despite feeling like I’ve somehow managed to waste my entire day I feel pretty good. Relaxed even.
I do know this means I’m going to have a hell of a time falling asleep because when I spend multiple hours on any one project I tend to see myself doing it when I close my eyelids (this hasn’t just happened with games like Sims, it also happened when I took up knitting). I can tolerate that sort of thing with writing because I don’t see my fingers on the keyboard or the words forming on the screen- probably because my eyes are usually closed when I’m writing, but I see the stories themselves and it’s about the same as dreaming. Though I still have to be careful with that because if I’m working hard enough on a plot then I’m just laying there with my eyes closed, thinking.
Thank goodness for Tylenol PM and a weak tolerance. :)
I know what you mean about wasting time. Glad I’m not alone, especially because I usually feel a wave of guilt afterwards.
BTW I came across your blog posting via Wefeelfine.org. Serendipity is my favourite state of mind. :-)
Keep up the thought-provioking posts.
David
Hello, David. :) Welcome to my little nook in the net and thank you for your comment. :D I do feel so guilty when I spend time like that (let alone a whole day) but the more I give it thought the more I realize that I needed that time. The brain can’t always be running on full power- and mine obviously doesn’t so I should probably be embracing it. ;)
Hmm, I’ve never been to that site. Just checked it out though and it looks so fun. :D Lol, I think serendipity is my favorite word and words are my state of mind. ;)
Thanks for sharing! :D I hope to see you around again when my posts are a little less ramble’some.
there is nothing like just immersing yourself in something you totally wouldn’t normally do for an extended period of time! i have this Bookworm game on my DS and it really helps put the brain in a different frame for a time which is essential to sanity I think :) I heard a writer speak once and one of the things she said all writers need to learn how to do is to learn how to waste time.
I think I’ve heard something along those lines before and it’s true. We spend so much time off in la la land letting the stories form but to me that isn’t wasting time (unless it turns to FanFiction). I never considered gaming might be useful to me but hey- if it forces some relaxation into these running thoughts of mine and gives the mental fish some time to de-tense then it’s worth it. ;)
Lol. DS. :D That’s awesome.