Health Insurance… or not…
September 16th, 2009
Haven’t ben posting too much this month but that’s alright. If you’re a reader then you know how it goes. Some months I’ll have nearly twenty some posts and other months I’ll only have a handful but I’m still writing so it’s alright. There’s a huge difference between not writing and not posting and I can’t for the life of me not write.
I’d die. Plain and simple.
I’m going through a bit of a rough time right now. I really want to get in to see my therapist but I just found out I don’t qualify for Medicaid. To quote the lady at the health department “You are one of those sad, sad people we just can’t help because you’re going to fall through the cracks.” Turns out I make too much for Medicaid, I can’t get this other program because I’m married. I can’t get another one because I’m not prego and have no intention of becoming so any time soon and then there’s another one I don’t qualify for because I don’t live in one of the ten districts which in fact surround me on all sides but don’t include my town. I can’t get health insurance through work either- not that I’d really want to. Not only do I have to pay into it (not happening on my wages) but there’s a huge co-pay on every service I need. I can’t get it because I’d have to get a load more hours in that I just can’t- not just because I’d be working my self to death and thus wouldn’t need health insurance but because there is only so much work available and I’m already getting a lot more than some people.
Very sucky, eh? So, I’m going to go up to the place where my psychiatrist from the dark days works and see what it’s going to cost to see her. I trust her- past experience has proved to me that she really cares for her patients and even if I can only afford to see her once or she’s not qualified to help with my specific issues I trust she’ll be able to recommend a course of action or give me something to call the darkness. That’s all I really want right now- a way to fight what’s going on even if it’s only a little.
I’m thinking we’re going to go up there next week. I’ve asked for some time off work to clear my head- just four days but trust me it helps. I figure the first day I’ll have off to recover from work, the second day I’ll go up, and the third day will be to recover or let everything she told me settle down inside my skull and then the fourth day will be for figuring out what I need to do next.
Oh dearest, I’m sorry to hear this. I hope all will be well soon. You know where I am if you need an ear.
Quill: Thankies muchly. Things are… well, I’m not sure if they’re getting better but they are moving right along and that’s what matters to me most. So long as I don’t find myself at a standstill I think I’ll be alright. :) Movement is life, change is life, stagnation doesn’t exist. :)
That is so unfair. It makes me really angry that they KNOW there are people falling through the cracks, yet they basically just shrug their shoulders and say “too bad, so sad”. You deserve WAY better than that, Spirit. I hope that you’re able to get in to see her and that she can help you.
Chibi: I wanted so much to be mad at the lady who told me that- Kei was pretty angry herself but I understood where the woman was coming from for the most part (though it could have definitely be handled better). She did all she could do- her job is filing my paperwork and telling me if I qualify or not. Beyond that she isn’t trained for much else and that’s where another problem of the system comes in. If they trained these people- or at least told them where to direct those of us who don’t qualify there would be a lot less people sitting home letting themselves be consumed by whatever they need the health insurance for like I was so tempted to. There has to be a direction to send everyone who doesn’t qualify, another place for them to try- something, anything, so they don’t feel so hopeless. That’s why everyone is so frustrated with the system- everyone just directs everyone else into another hopeless wall and that’s what we’ve come to expect. If we weren’t so frustrated all the time maybe we could move forward to the solution but the government is too lazy to see the small details- to see where paperwork and cash meet living and breathing people (though I suppose if it continues on we don’t have to worry much about them breathing).
Ah, I’ve ranted. Damnit. Woops.
Anyways, you’re right I do deserve better. I’ve been patient and did everything they asked- everyone deserves much better. Fortunately I look for challenges like this- it’s just another thing to work through and see where it will lead me. :) Thankies for the comment.
i think you have made a good call to see someone you trust and ask for their advise about where to go next *hugs*
Jessie: Alas, my person doesn’t work there anymore but I haven’t given up. I feel like I’m jumping in to the lion’s den right now but hopefully it all works out. I know it will I just hope it’s not as mentally/emotionally painful as I fear it might. :)