Happy Fuzzy Brain
August 10th, 2009
Mmm, tired. I’ve so much to post about and yet… my brain is all fuzzy inside. It’s kind of nice. These past two months or so everything has been painfully vivid within the void of my skull. It was starting to grind on my precious happy reserves but right now even after a nap, two showers (one to just enjoy the hot water and another to actually wash since I used up all the hot water the first time), and lots of starring out into space… it’s all still so ‘blur’ and I find myself absolutely loving this feeling.
I feel like when I lie down for bed tonight I’ll actually wake up rested- like when I close my eyes I won’t actually see the horrific images locked in the closets of my imagination. I just feel good. Hell, I don’t even know how I’ve managed to make it this far through this post and remain coherent and I don’t much care. Isn’t it wonderful?!
Tomorrow I’m going to Borders. Too poor to purchase anything right now but I love taking my laptop there because 1.) No internet = no distractions, 2.) I focus best when I’m trying not to think everyone is looking at me (meaning basically that if I sit in a place with a lot of people it’ll make me nervous and so I’ll try to distract myself by writing and thus get a lot of writing done), and 3.) I’ve done some of my most heartfelt writing in public places which is really odd because it’s just beyond my comfort zone.
I think I started this post with some point or another in mind but it has successfully escaped me. Sneaky, sneaky little thought. Oh, well.
Night.
PS, I’m doing comments tomorrow night. Too tired tonight but I have been reading them and you’re all so awesome.
going to a new place can always freshen up your writing :)
Not just the writing but also the mind and goodness knows I’ve needed to let some air in there and rough up the cobwebs a wee bit. :)
I’m so glad you’re feeling better Spirit! I was so worried about you!
Nikki, well, dearie- I’m not out of the dark yet. I have to be honest about that because if I let myself think otherwise I might not be ready to catch myself when I fall back again BUT I am doing much better. Things are getting manageable. Not as good as they were say a month ago but I’m dealing with things much better right now. Thankies for worrying- sometimes I forget to do it for myself. ;)
Well, I’m glad you’re starting to slow down a little. No one can go at full speed all the time!
Chibi, I can try, can’t I? Lol, don’t answer that. I’m picking up a lot of projects to fill the free space in my head so I’m not sure if I’m slowing down but I am giving myself more space to breath- maybe not expecting quite as much from myself. Thankies for the comment.