Ah, I love showers. Warm water, quiet, plenty of room to think. It’s more like a ritual in meditation rather than habitual cleanliness. I swear some of my best story ideas hit me in the shower– perhaps some of my stranger ones too but I suppose that’s to be expected.
I just got out of the shower and I’m feeling much better than I did before I went in. I always hurt a bit after work– some days are better than others but most days I still come out feeling like crap but that doesn’t matter right now. What matters right now is that I feel awesome. Comfortably tired, warm, fuzzy (new pajamas will do that to you), and just… good.
Anyways, I haven’t had much time lately to make a real blog post (that and I’ve been having way too much fun with the new camcorder) so– here we go. Lol.
There’s a lot new in my life right now but when isn’t there? The world is always changing and not just the ‘big’ world but the place inside my head, my home, my heart, my dreams. Everything is constantly changing and I love it– most of the time.
My Hubby quit his job recently for moral reasons, I’m proud of him for sticking up for what’s right that and it was just a bad situation and he’s so much happier now. Things will be a bit tight for awhile but he’s following his dreams and that’s what matters to me. I can’t count how many times I’ve felt the need to do something but tried to find another rout because the one in front of me didn’t have a guaranteed path. He worries for the future but he’s doing what he feels he needs to do.
Work for me is just about the same as it was before. I still go, still get paid less than I should, still come home, still complain, and still get over it again. I’m still moving on with one foot in front of the other.
The only really newish thing going on at work is that I’m finding more and more people who’ve secretly never liked me and never said anything about it before. People who think I’m a lousy worker and who are ‘amazed’ I still have a job. I’m not sure what I think about some of these new and extremely obvious developments. On one hand I don’t really care what they think, I know I work hard– I come home every night cursing from the pain to remind myself that I’ve pushed myself to a limit, High school is long over and I’m not interested in popularity contests. On the other hand, somehow a tiny part gets to me. Mostly because these people seem to be multiplying and conspiring together (that’s purposeful vague wording by the way). I don’t like feeling like people are out to get me, worse yet I’ve been there longer, feel like I work harder, and I still get paid less. I know why I get paid less, starting pay rate now is higher than it was when I started, but it still feels like it’s backing up what these people are saying.
Anyway, new topic please.
Kei has been gone for two days. She’s off visiting with her mother. Hopefully she’ll be back in time for work tomorrow. I’m always worried when she goes up there. I know she can take care of herself but I don’t feel like anyone is taking care of her. In the end things are only my business up to a certain point and every bird needs to learn how to flap their own wings– not from being shown but by doing it themselves. I could tell her how to stick up for herself, tell her how good it feels but she won’t really know until that moment in her life comes.
In case you’ve been on Mars for the past few days (or just haven’t visited in awhile) and don’t know my happy, happy news– I have a new camcorder! It’s pretty, useful, and durable. If you look below you’ll notice I’ve started to video blog (vlog) a little bit but it’s going to take me awhile to really get going with it. We got the camera for more than one reason but I want to go into that later. It’s important for me to write about it but not right now.
Hmm, what else? Oh, yes! How could I possibly forget?
The first unofficial printing of my novel (for editing purposes) is done! Actually it was done a few days back but I haven’t had the mind to write about it until now. The current total page count with the way we have it set up is 349 pages (wow).
My Hubby suggested we take it to Staples to get it printed after I spent an hour complaining about how editing things on computer is so much more difficult than fixing things on plain paper. I was thinking about when I first used to write stories with nothing but pen and paper and complaining mostly about the temptation to do too much editing. So, he suggested we go print it and print it we did.
It’s huge! The lady even bound it for us for a discount price. Squee! It’s very huggable and makes me feel just that much closer to publishing the darn thing. Editing is going much faster now, the big thing is picking out any inconsistencies and then a few of my friends are going to help me go over it with a fine tooth comb before I get ready to do the whole manuscript thing.
Editing is definitely a different sort of playground. I had my spell check shut off throughout the entire writing process (a fact which I’m very proud of) and most of it was written in that beautiful trance like state that we creators fall into from time to time so… there’s a lot to be done yet. Not that that’s a bad thing, I’m still trying to get a process going to get the thing done. So far the only thing I’ve figured out is that if I do a little every day and watch carefully how the side of finished pages gets bigger and bigger.
A little everyday. *sigh*
Anyways, there was a ton more I wanted to write and tell you all about but I’m so terribly tired I think it’ll have to wait for now. Thank you all you wonderful people who’ve left me comments. I’ll moderate and reply to them all soon but not tonight. Tonight is mine.