For Me
December 29th, 2008
I feel the need to state that this post has absolutely nothing to do with anything I’ve ever posted before.
I hereby vow not to care about it anymore.
It’s making me depressed and I don’t want to be depressed, not only for the obvious reasons but because I don’t want those I love to be depressed that I’m depressed.
So, I won’t think about it anymore. It’s not happening. It makes me a little sad but I can live without it.
Until I know I can keep this vow I will not read about it, write stories about it, or talk about it with friends casually (though for a specific two of my readers I will talk to you about a side matter someday). Not that I’ve been doing much of the latter two to begin with. I won’t do any of that because I know in the end it will lead me to think about it and I will get depressed and as much as I want it- it’s not going to happen so I will stop wishing for it.
This is my vow to myself.
*sigh* Sorry this is such an off kilter post and that I don’t plan on explaining it but I find I tell the deepest of truth when I write it and if I’m going to keep this vow I needed to write it down. I don’t know how long I’ll keep it but I just need to keep it until it doesn’t depress me anymore, when it doesn’t and it’s safe to think about it again then I will.
Night.
