Sitting in the Rain

Wow, today was just wonderful! Absolutely beautiful and the day itself went by a lot better than I had first anticipated.

Generally I’m a night shift person but because our workers have been dropping like flies, so to speak, in my particular area I had to work a morning today. I don’t like mornings in the first place. It’s such a radical change from my shift that I wake up feeling horrible and my stomach hurts in a way that can only mean I haven’t slept enough.

Then there’s the matter that I don’t actually know anyone from the morning shift. Me and not knowing people are a bad combination, I’m naturally very shy, quiet, and paranoid. Worse- I had to work with this really tall guy who kind of scares me. I mean most of the male populace makes me feel uneasy in small spaces anyways, but this guy is like a giant and I’m like the size of a twelve year old.

I didn’t know what to do with myself well over half the time mostly because it was slow and mornings run on a whole different circuit than the night kitchen. I felt horrible just standing there sometimes so I forced myself to eat two granola bars (eating right after I wake up is never a good thing but it was something to do with my hands) and cleaned out the sinks.

Fortunately there was a mix up with the schedule and I got to run down and work at one of the other kitchens after the first grueling hour and a half. Even better- I got to work all by myself. Normally I don’t really like to work in this other kitchen as things usually get pretty tense to the point of shouting and throwing things (not on my part) but it was so much more relaxing for once.

I just didn’t feel comfortable working with that other guy, don’t get me wrong he’s a nice fella as far as I can tell and a decent worker on top of it but some people just make me freak out and then the whole situation of being surrounded by people I didn’t know, I was just so happy to be out of there.

As the day wore on though I started to feel really sick. Have you ever stayed up so late that your stomach starts to cramp up? I have and it felt just like that. It was horrible and the smell of food made me want to gag, especially *ugh* breakfast food with the really sweet syrup and the bacon smell combined. To say the least I was checking the clock every few minutes even though it seemed like every few hours.

Then there’s the fact that I didn’t even know what time my shift got over with. I had a vague idea but when you’re trying to count down the minutes that doesn’t really count for much. It really sucked but just when I was worried I wouldn’t make it the guy in charge of that kitchen for that shift suddenly walked up and told me I could go home already.

*big grin* Needless to say I was a very happy little spirit, it was a whole hour or so before my earliest assumptions of freedom. Heck, I had to go and ask him just to make sure he wasn’t joking but as soon as I knew I was out of there faster than you can ‘clocked out’.

So I left and let me tell you it was just the most beautiful day ever as I walked from one restaurant to the other. I tried to call my Hunny so he could pick me up but our cells have been having problems lately and the call wouldn’t go through so I was a bit paranoid as this has happened before and last time I couldn’t call anyone else. Lucky me this time I got a hold of his mom. :)

Then the best possible thing happened-

-it started to rain!

It was so beautiful and it didn’t start out with a sprinkle. No, it just started to pour down on me with a wonderful roar of wind and water. I didn’t even bother to put my coat on since it was still so nice and warm.

It was wonderful, I can’t even put it into words how much I love the rain. I think I might just like dancing in the rain just a teeny tiny bit more than writing but I won’t say for sure, that almost feels blasphemous, lol. So, I spent the next half an hour running, dancing, and eventually sitting in the rain. The sitting was done under and overhang in a relatively dry spot since I was kind of cold by then.

I practiced clearing my mind and just listening. Not hearing, but really listening with my eyes closed while I tried to imagine the rain falling like it was on the other side of my eyelids.

It was awesome. That’s the only word for it especially in my poor sleep deprived state. I have to go do the exact same thing again tomorrow and even though the day started out pretty tense for me I think I’ll be happy and content so long as it rains. :)

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