Do You Hear Me Darkness?
March 31st, 2008
“Are you there, darkness? Of course you are there. You’re always there. The real question is- are you listening? For your sake I hope so.”
I have spent today in fear. Jumping at ever little sound and keeping all the lights on. Why you might ask? Because someone has tried to make me cower. Someone has tried to force my hand and make me see the world through their corrupt eyes. Someone has threatened that which is most precious to me and I am here to tell you that I will stand for it no longer.
“Do you hear me darkness? No more.”
I take the path of peace not only because of my heart’s flow but because I am not equipped to stand up to you on my own or anyone for that matter but do you think that will stop me? Do you think because I am weak and my will often bends to my emotions that you can control me? Make me do as you please?
You must else you wouldn’t have tried this but no more. You cannot harm me. You will never harm me. I will not allow it.
“Do you hear me darkness?”
I have no weapons, no muscles, no power. My bark is often worse than my bite and since I seldom bark you may never be bitten but I can do something much worse than harm you in return. Yes, much worse than bringing myself down to your disgusting level.
I can stand up for myself. I can stand tall with my held high and though tears may stain my cheeks I will never falter.
“Do you hear me darkness? I have rendered you powerless.”
You can hurt me and the scars may last a thousand years but I will hold up the flesh of my heart to the rest of the world and shout “See?! These are the paths walked and the roads I’ve taken. These are the thorns I’ve suffered and the trials I have endured. These are my victories and though they have left me scared- I have gained the journey in making them and that is something the darkness will never have for the dark cannot bear scars.”
I can be scared and that gives me power for what scars me makes me stronger. Bend me, burn me, blight me, but in the end you will never break me.
“Do you hear me darkness? I accept you. I take you into the furthest reaches of my mind and hold you close to my heart because you no longer have power over me. From you I find my light. From my scars I learn and grow. From your threats I gain a force of will.”
I am not the child you once knew me to be. I neither cling to light in desperation nor do I fall into that place from whence you came. I am me and will fear you no longer. I have grown to accept all facets of life and the shadow world, it is all a part of me and I no longer harm myself- so you can no longer harm me in return.
“Do you hear me darkness?”
I have stood up to your deceptive words and they are no more. You are nothing, nothing at all. I am something. I am me. I can be scared and from it I can grow. I can become something more and for that I am better.
“Do you hear me darkness?”
You are nothing to me.
Be gone.
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OOOOOOOOOOOOOG i love it!! you go girl woo hoo!!
A wonderful expression of defiance against all the dark things in peoples lives. Awesome work little spirit.
completely heart felt. I could feel your defiance in this. The want to overcome that of which may have a way of making you afraid. Well done my little spirit.
quill
just because you favour peace, does not make you weak. in my eyes, it makes you stronger. peace and love can be more difficult to maintain in today’s world. keep on with the good fight. :-)
Hi Spirit,
Lovely…..so much courage and strength is admirable :P
here’s hoping the darkness hasn’t swallowed you. 8^>
Crystal: Lol. Thankies dearie, that means a lot coming from you.
EW: Thankies. :) It was more towards a particular darkness but then it just kind of spread out to all the dark things I could think of. :D
Quill: Written right in the moment. I was just so mad that this one thing wouldn’t leave me alone. Thankies very much.
J1M: Thankies a ton and very true. I wish peace were easier to keep in today’s world but I suppose we wouldn’t appreciate it quite as much then. I shall, :), as some saying or another goes “be the peaceful warrior”, I think. Thankies again.
Meghna: Hello and thankies I appreciate it. :) I only hope I can have more of these moments of courage in the future.
J1M: It nearly did at one point, I’m so sorry for losing contact with you for a bit there! I hate dropping off the face of the earth like that. :S
You are not alone in this never ending fight! I will stand strong, right next to you! What else can we use to resist this darkness, than our deep hearts!
@ Jascha
Hello and thank you for the comment. Too true! All there is to do is resist, allowing the dark to bring us down is ‘not’ an option! :)