An Update On Life
February 1st, 2008
It occurs to me that with all the writing prompts, pictures, awards, excerpts, and other writing related awesomeness I’ve neglected to do any journal writing for awhile now. No, it’s not really because I’ve been busy but more or less because all I have been doing non stop is write lately. I mean- I get up, eat, pet the cats, and use the restroom now and then but my mind is completely taken over by words- no. I take that back. Words are occupying my mind but stories, scenes, and characters. It seems a whole other world has taken up residence in my skull and I thank them, but that’s enough about my mentality. Onto life.
Yesterday my Hunny brought me flowers. Pink Roses and some Lily like looking kind of things that I couldn’t name for the life of me. He spoils me. The other day he bought me some of my favorite music and today we went and picked up this MP3 player I’ve had my eye on since we have the money at the moment. I don’t need any of this stuff and he knows it but he likes to give me things. I would love him even if he never bought me a single thing. He could pick a Dandelion out of the neighbors yard and I would still coo and aw over the same way I do an arm load of Roses.
He’s helping me with my education and he’s given me all the tools I need to fallow my dream as a writer, I just need to take the last steps. He’s given me a home and a family, both extended (the in laws) and close (the cats). He’s given me love and healed my soul. He’s given me someone to share my happy, sad, and mad moments with and imparted a wisdom only he seems privy to upon me. What I would do without him I dare not imagine for fear of what I would see. I love my Hunny.
Work still sucks. I still love the work but the job… well it could be worse too I suppose. My biggest thing is the drama issue going on right now. I’ve never been very good at fallowing the antics of other girls my age but when it comes down to he said she said and talking behind peoples backs I want nothing to do with it. I’ll give my opinion and state the truth as I know it but should someone take my words and try to turn them on me then we have a problem. There is an issue and I want nothing to do with it, in fact by all rights I don’t have anything to do with it but people keep putting me in the middle and then calling me a liar- I hate that the most. Only I can call me a liar and get away with it.
I have recently been accused of telling a girl’s boyfriend that she’s only with him because she wants to get pregnant and have a baby. I’m sorry but even if it was true I don’t think I could ever say that to someone’s other half. Not only is it not my place but there’s no way to prove the motives of another person. It’s all speculation. Now, given I personally "believe" that might be the case I’m not so careless with my tongue that I would say that let alone forget having said it. The boyfriend who claims to be worried about her but is always saying just as bad of things about her as she is of him (of course I don’t repeat this because they both do it and it’s not my place) said that she’d been flushing her birth control down the toilet. I was upset because she had asked me to pick up some pregnancy tests for her and mentioned as much. I believe I was well within my right to express my dislike of the situation but if her surmised the same thing I did that’s his thing. I did not say what I was thinking.
I work with her tomorrow. She has major anger issues and is more manipulative than my biological mother though a little more obvious in what she does. If it get’s out of hand I’m thinking about telling someone. Pray for me. I’ll need it as I’m not usually one to shake things up unless I feel a real wrong has been done. True, I might get treated like crap but I ‘could’ deal with it and not say anything. The only wrong being done is in the fact that I shouldn’t have to.
That aside I’m a happy camper. Minor bugs on my site had me down but in the end it turned out to be a good excuse to bond with my brother who I asked to hack my site and show me where I need to update my security. Lol, why wait till it happens to see what you need to do when you can have it happen in a controlled manner and fix the problem before real damage is done. :) I’m proud to say that at the moment I have 72 members, 30 are decently active.
Health is good. I’m still having breathing issues but I have my own inhaler now which should help things out a lot I just hope it doesn’t taste like purple like the other two did. Now, I know you might think of grape when I said ‘it tasted like purple’ but that’s not what I mean. It taste like purple finger paint. Don’t ask.
I slept about an hour and a half last night, more than likely because I didn’t write. I’m hoping since my multi posting days have returned I’ll be able to nick that problem quickly. This is my second post tonight and after that I’m going to work on a brilliant, well I think it is, new version of Musical Muses and Magickal Storms. The next version will most likely go on my private blog because I find myself wanting to do something with it. I’m not sure what but I just have this feeling that I really could make it something good.
Blessed be all. May the force be with you. *wink*
consider you prayed for re the co-worker. hope it goes well. :-)
and, no, THINGS aren’t needed in any way, shape or form, but sometimes they are nice. and always more so when offered by a loved one. i agree re the neighbour’s flower, too. like most things (should be), it’s in the giving, not the gift. :-)
i think we were on the same wave length in the wee hours of this morning :) i slept from like 11 to 3 but then couldn’t really sleep after that. i sort of napped.
i also feel the same way about my hubby. i spend a lot of time with his family and now that he has given me the chance to not work while i write and go back to school it has been amazing!!–i hate when he asks me what I want for my birthday b/c i sound so cheesy when i say–I have everythign I want. and I do :)
Also I’m with you on the co-workers. I never had alot of girlfriends b/c I never wanted to do the he said/she said games. I think if you have had a “hard/rough/less than comfortable” home life that is sometimes an after effect, and not a bad one I think.
Have a pleasant Friday and a great weekend :)
J1M: Thankies for the prayer. I needed it. In the end I got up the courage to talk to her and we sorted a lot of things out, but I think I’ll save that story for a post. ;)
Very well put, via the last line there. It doesn’t matter what he gives me, it’s the fact that he’s there and that he’s thinking of me. I love him so much.
Jessie: Hehehe. I hope you get some sleep soon. ;) I’m used to running this way but I certaintly wouldn’t wish it upon another. Sometimes I wonder how I do it.
I know. I feel corny too when I say some things to him. Like, when he asks what I want for my birthday or Christmas I say “Just you” or something eaqually silly sounding but I mean it all the same. I supose it sounds corny to me because I’m still getting used to loving someone so much. I hope I never get used to it though. ;)
Thankies. Fortunatly it worked out. I’ve never been a very social bug but at the same time I’m glad. I know what goes on at parties and such and I’m happy I don’t get invited. The temptation to do certain things,… well, let’s just say I like the person I am and I think if I had been more social I wouldn’t be the me we all know and love.
good to see you happy dear. you and your hunny..u both look so cute together :) may god’s blessings always be on u both.
i am praying for you. all will be fine. dont worry too much on your cowerker’s part.
take care…love..huggs n kisses
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Preetilata: Aww thankies very much. He is such a sweetheart.
(:(:(: Hugs right back at you!