Sep
Kind Of Depressed
Just got home. I’m kind of tired, kind of hungry, and in a semi odd mood. In short I don’t know if I’m upset or not. I need more hours in order for work to cover me for health insurance. I should already make plenty but it seems every time I ask the amount of time I need on the clock goes up. I’m loath to have to work mornings. It’ll ruin my whole sleeping schedule, school schedule, and what little time I do get to spend with my hunny whom it seems I’m seeing less and less of every week between him going to college and work. I am not a happy camper. Working mornings will also seriously cut into my writing time.
Sadly, if I need to do it- I will do it. Weekly nose bleeds that last way too long, poor immune system, back and bone issues, a new shoe lift, dental: the list goes on. Oh, well, I’ll live. That is the point of health insurance after all. I just wish I didn’t have to hear about it right when I get home. I’d like to get my hugs in first maybe something to eat but no, life isn’t candy coated like that.
I could really use some cheering up right now. I’ve been getting really depressed or easily upset by the simplest of things lately. I have a history of depression among other things and it seems when winter comes on it takes effect even more so than usual. I’ve tried the whole meds things several times before but I seem to do better without. Journaling will probably help and writing on certain emotionally related genres could help me work through things, mayhaps when I do get insurance I’ll look into therapy again. Sometimes it’s good to have someone completely unrelated look a situation, they have an unattached perspective that you may never be able to use.
