Style Or Something Else
September 19th, 2007
It seems that everything I write lately or attempt to write as it may be is not my ‘usual’ style. I’m beginning to wonder if I ever really truly knew what my style was in the first place.
I have a theory. I’ve been writing ever since I could read, and I’ve been making stories in my mind since, well, all my life. When I was in fifth grade I wrote a short story that might well be termed as extremely violent for a child my age. Mind you, the way I’ve grown up I’m a little more mature than I should be. Well, I was proud of myself and showed it off at school like every other happy fifth grader and ended up in the school counselors office. My mother didn’t care much but everyone else treated it as if there was something seriously wrong with me. It was taken away and disposed of. Since then I was very careful about what I wrote. Romance, language, violence, have all been toned down throughout the years. I can make the scenes in my mind but I wouldn’t type them up, thus they were not part of the plot and the story lacked and major possibly offensive thing I feared to get in trouble for.
Nowadays, I’m a bit older and no longer bound by the rules of society. Well, I am still though I try not to be but you know what I mean. I’ve lived without parents for several years now though I’m only 18 and I’ve been out of public school for two years. It doesn’t matter if someone finds something I’ve typed up and it has a little bit of this or that in it and I’m beginning to think my trained mind has just realized it.
The story I’ve recently (two months tops) started to get into writing has quite a bit of blood in it and violence though those two are rarely connected (< it’s complicated), and more romance than I’m generally comfortable talking about. It’s almost a relief to be able to allow myself to plan out a story that has these things as key plot elements. It’s not the usual fluffy ‘morally’ bound stuff that I restrict myself to.
My theory: My thoughts and feelings have been so restricted throughout the basis of my life that I am only just beginning to know where I stand and what style fits me. Perhaps someday I’ll write a horror story or a romance novel. I have doubt on both of those but who knows in the end? Violence and romance are key parts of everyday life. To take them out of writing is just foolish.
