Pathes
September 19th, 2007
I’m still in school. Online school to be precise. Going to school at my own pace works for me in a fashion that I might have never been able to achieve in a public high school. I had trouble concentrating and extensive anxiety around peers my own age. I’ve always been like that and don’t get me wrong, I have a good bit of intellect hidden in the cobwebs of my mind, but I would not have good grades to speak of if it weren’t for online education. I never did my homework and I moved around too much, to top it off I was really unorganized, hence the loss of what little work I did do.
With every exam I take I find myself getting close to that finale moment. I can hardly wait till I’m done though I know it won’t be the end. I’ve always planned on going to college even though it wasn’t even a distinct possibility till just recently in my life. Now that I can actually see myself finishing high school, though later than I should, I’ve begun to think about what I’d like to do with my life.
Everyone asks you at this point in life; what do you want to be? Or what do you want to go to college for? Each and every single person has so much potential, how can one even think to ask such stupid questions?! Better question: How can one be stupid enough to narrow their lives down to one single field?! True each field has nearly infinite possibilities but no one knows what direction they are going to go. How can I possibly answer question like that?
I digress and move back to my point. I think I may have finally figured out a general direction to move in. There are so many things I’d like to do in life but I know I really would like a job that had something to do with writing. I don’t necessarily enjoy paperwork but every job is going to have that, anyways- I think I would like to teach creative writing. I love creative writing, if that point isn’t obvious by now you must not have been paying attention, and I love to talk about writing, to discuss it in depth. I still need to do a bit more research on what it would be like to see if I might even remotely enjoy the job but who knows. A path never traveled is like a whole world unexplored to me. Then again this is just what I’d like to do as a base. My main job as sadly we must all have something that makes the money though I’ve heard teaching doesn’t pay well it would still permit me time to write and pursue other fields.
Aside from the main I’d like to have a job revolving something metaphysical. A spiritual therapist of sorts, which means pursuing a course in psychology. I already known I enjoy that topic almost as much as writing. I like to help people and I like anything on a metaphysical/spiritual/living energy based level. I’ve always been like that but I know for a fact not many people make money in that territory. I wouldn’t exactly want to do it for the money, it’s just what I’m interested in, but sadly the world revolves around cash in one form or another. If this great sphere rolled on kindness, the poor would be rich and the rich would be poor and I’d be a happy camper.
Muse of the moment: :( None. Sadly all the kitties are amiss, off in litter land. Makes sense though, I’ve had so many interruptions throughout this post. I’m not even sure if it’s coherent at this point though I hope it is.
